Life isn't easy. But do I have to be this busy? Busy means stressed, not rational, not comfortable, tired, no free time, not enough sleep, emo, not happy, no enjoyment, sad, and I also ever think 'I better die' (stupid! I know). I think I am too negative now. In addition, what make me under pressure is when people around me also under pressure. Their emotions shown on their face discourage me sometimes. Different ideas, different approach, different ways of thinking in doing work, different purposes on life; I mean, when we don't have unity in doing work. At this moment, those make me down. We should not follow our emotions 100%, why don't we just forget about our feelings for a while and focus on the problem oriented? why don't we respect others and not focusing on the people oriented? stop blaming others because we are just the same, not perfect.
Lord, I'm sorry for being negative and weak. I always asking You why? why? why? but then, from the beginning I already know the answer. I believe that, this is the 'monster' I have to defeat, this is the 'storm' that I have to fight with, and this is the 'fire' that I have to extinguish. I know I can do this, I know I can Live well, I know that one day I'll say "I WIN". This shall pass and will be done. Amen.
